Freedom skies..!

Is it time already?
To realize that there is a pain that does not hurt.
Is this the end of the line?
One step ahead is an eternity of freedom.

Blurry morning with rain drops pouring,
My window fogs up clearing my mind.
The strangest feeling in the world pleads to bind,
To engulf me and protect me.

Every breath of air screams of freedom,
You made a spot and wondered about it a lot.
Every screech of the wind carves a fresh gash,
Every move I make seems unconscious,
But you know you‘re not dreaming.

You wake up to the gloom,
And yet it seems to bloom.
You wake up the dullness,
Yet it so bright.
You wake up to forget the night,
Yet the deception feels so right.

This is for all those people who re at the point in their lives where nothing seems right, But nothings seems wrong either. Its just vast land of freedom to roam around.

Dont ever underestimate the power of freedom.

Shaam tanhaayi ki hain,
Aayegi manzil kaise..?

A man who had just died, arrived at heavens gate. Before allowing him
entry, St. Peter asked him if had ever loved a woman.
"No", the man replied, "Not a single one."
"Did you have a friend you cared for?"
"No."
"Perhaps you loved a pet? Did you not feel a love for nature?"
"No."
"What took you so long to get here?" asked a surprised St. Peter.
"You have been dead for ages." - Readers Digest.

Bad things that can happen to you..!

You sneeze more than 3 times in a row.
You figure out that you have more hair on your butt than on your head
You put on your pants and realize they are too tight in the thighs.
You are slightly annoyed but have no idea why.
You realize that knuckles look very odd.
You flip the channels one to many times and have to go back
Being really thirsty and taking a big gulp of your Sprite only to discover that the syrup is out and you have a big nasty cup of carbonated water
Drop your books in the hall
You experience DejaVu
You sneeze while having food in your mouth
the soap breaks
Someone e-mails you a chain-letter
You get caught picking your nose.
One nipple gets hard and pokes you shirt all day but the other one stays normal
You pet the nice doggy, then smell your hand.
Waking up on Valentines Day to the sound of sex through the walls, and you're all alone.
You get the Macarena song stuck in your head
A bird craps on you
You forget to put on a bra & go to work
Some random person squeezes your arse lovingly in a crowd.
Your alarm clock doesn't go off.
You wake up 5 minutes before your alarm clock goes off
The alarm clock did go off
You fail to silence a fart in public.
You lose only one contact lens and didn't bring glasses
You burn your dinner
You realize your fly is open, in public, two hours after going to the bathroom
Your backpack makes the back of your dress ride up exposing your ass
You have to walk in to a REALLY stinky bathroom to wash your hands only to leave and find a long queue outside who are now convinced that you made the stink.
Stuck in a boring conversation
You get someone elses laundry mixed up with your own - its their underwear - and there are skid marks.
A bird poops on your windshield

Complainers..!

Okay, I complain a lot.
Not that I am an unhappy person, its just my built up frustration tends ease out by constant procrastination. I mean lets face it life's real hard. So yes, Swearing and complaining helps. This can probably bring in two kind of judgment from your side : One, She is an dissatisfied person or two, she is less of a fighter.
And just to be clear I am certain that I am none of these. But I was an angry teenager. I had a raging tempermant ready to snap its jaws on anyone threatening to prod the waters. People actually were terrified of me when I was in school, and for an extra added effect I was a fat kid. Anybody who dared to pounce on my nerves, actually faced physical injuries. Not that I beat them up ( Hello! I am a girl..!)Its just I chucked anything in my hand at the person out of sheer aggressiveness. Be it a metal pencil case, stone, basket ball or whatever the list goes on.But I changed and for the good. I guess as you grow up, you 're more matured and life bitchslaps you at every situation where you learn new lesson all the time and be a better person.
So long story cut short, I am much more calmer and composed now. My temper seems to be in check and I don't lose it all easy.Because somewhere I have come to realise that bringing out your emotions means being vulnerable to things and proves to be weakness in other people eyes. So that leaves me with fighting down my urge to vent that feeling out. So in a more healthy way I whine and complain. Somehow I tend to find it soothing and a much more healthier way to unwind all the knots inside of you. And a much cheaper way as well. Its like a verbal and mental massage!
For sure not many people like people complaining all the time. I don't as well ( thats probably a hypocritic statement, But atleast i am honest.)
But guys give us a break. At this life thats just so hard to sail by you can always bear the brunt of a complainers, and whiners.
So next time you see a person complaining ( Well let me be specific : comaplaining about sensible and rational things), Just nod in agreement and empathize. Its just one of those tapped anger making its way out in a more warming fashion. Unless you 're trying to prod the storm in a sea of poppies..!
Maybe you should try procrastinating for a while. You will soon see the effect yourself.
Love, peace and brotherhood..! ( And not to forget the complainers..)

I cant believe Humans can be so Naive. They are jealous of people who put a big smile on their face and step out of their home humming a tune. They think they 're the most happiest people.
But what they dont realise is that, its all just a mask to hide the skeletons and issues to just get by life. So wheres the question of being Jealous.

Losing all hope is real freedom.
- Edward Norton in the movie Fight Club.

When people abandon their minds, they finally realize that their emotions not only cant guide them anymore but also they cant feel any emotion but terror.

The ABC of growing up..!

Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins,
just run with me through rows of speeding cars.
The papercuts the cheating lovers,
The coffee's never strong enough,
i know you think it's more than just bad luck.

There there baby,
it's just text book stuff,
it's in the ABC of growing up.
Now, now darling,
oh don't lose your head,
'cause none of us were angels,
and you know I love you.

Sleeping pills know sleeping dogs lie,
never far enough away,
Glistening in the cold sweat of guilt.
I've watched you slowly winding down for years,
You can't keep on like this...
now's a bad a time as any.

There there baby,
it's just text book stuff,
it's in the ABC of growing up.
Now now darling,
oh don't kill yourself,
'cause none of us were angels,
and you know I love you.

Thanks to a friend of mine who put me in touch with this song again.

What goes around, Does it really come around?

I remember reading a play in my school days called 'A Christmas Carol written by Charles dickens.The story revolved around a man called Ebenezer Scrooge, who was a cold hearted and a shrewd man, who neither had any empathy nor the contempt for the poor as he often said "the world would would be better off without them." he also had a distaste in merriment the Christmas brought along, and doesnt agree on giving his clerk Bob Crattchit an early pay on Christmas eve. And at bedtime before the night of the Christmas dawn he is visited by the "ghost of the Christmas past" who is his ex bussiness partner Jacob Marley. So the ghost shows him the different phases of his life that is the past of Ebenezer Scrooge, the present and the yet-to-come future.
Ebenezer Scrooge after witnessing his own downfall for his neurotic behavior to Christmas and the misery put the entire family of his clerk Bob Crattchit does not go down well with his conscience. Henceforth he promises the Ghost of the Christmas past to change and live a new life with a better attitude. And he being thankful to the ghost of the Christmas past turns into a kinda hearted, and a generous man, enjoying his every Christmas from then on.
Well Scrooge had the chance to redeem and repent and rectify his mistake. I loved this tale and believed in it. But somehow in time, reality hits hard and you realise life is'nt all fair at all. What with the world changing so fast, just the wink of an eye and its gone. So I wonder with this world changing fast, life has shifted into a high gear and you don't really have the time to look back and ponder over the past. So where does the question of "rectifing" mistakes come from, when we 're constantly focused on our future.
So the past renderings lay forgotten. Not that its all bad, as time and tide wait for none. What I mean was, We re caught up with process of bounding forward we fail to realise something called Humility and Rationality. everybody wants to be a winner, everybody wants to make it to the top, and that too sooner the better. And for this some people resort to desperate and unfair means, even if it means compromising our own principles. I can give you tons of examples :
Politicians who do everything at the time of poll elections,
Casting couch scandal.
Reality Show and their revolutions and revelations of inside scoop of famous celebrities.
Paparazzi bitten shutter bugs.
Saintly preachings. and I could go on
Human beings are selfish. and sometimes I ask where is this going to take us? Will it be for a better tomorrow or are we heading to our destruction? How can god give everything to people who are not so good enough to receive it? How does this logic of Gods work, does he make everything seemingly available for someone who doesnt deserve it? When you see better things happening to bad people, how do you justify "what goes around comes around?" Just like Ebenezer Scrooge, who realised nothing god is gonna happen with his shrewd attitude.

Theres no one to give this answer is there? Or I guess maybe we should'nt be asking these questions as it is below us to question what life or god gives us. But somehow I would want to converse with god on this. But till then, tell me what to re-instate my faith in? In the blind divinity or diminishing rationality of human beings?
"Between the noise you hear, and the sounds you like,
Are we just sinking the ocean of faces?
It can't be possible... the rain can fall,
Only when it's over our heads.
The sun is shining everyday, but it's far away.
Over the world that's dead."
( One Republic with "all the right moves")

.."You belong with me..!"

I listen more closely than ever,
My Saturdays seem to speak to me,
In little whispers of joy streaming through.
I follow you more closely than ever,
All the footsteps you left behind.
which leads me back to you.

So won't you come around..?

"I have no luck, I dont miss it all that much"

Mystery blues hit me hard,
Oh! I found my mirror in shards,
I look into the shards,
I try to unearth the truth,
and wonder If I am any purposeful.

Its yet another drag-a-day,
I wish some one would just sing a "say"
I don't believe the Fortune Teller,
She lies, and says "It may".


They say life is full of surprises,
I say life is unfair.
They say nothing remains same,
I say Life is a sordid game.
But I don't know who to blame..!

I hold all the threads together,
Trying not to let go.
My grip being more stronger,
Sweaty brows and I tug more harder.

My will is good,
but its damn hard to fit in.
Why are people always in waning mood?
The answers for which I need to dig in.

Is life stranger than fiction?
Is it like some kind of suction?
From which I emerge tired and drained,

I hope the heavens send in their rains,
With all answers in them..